Well I am still here trying to figure what is next for me. My help has been such a wasted effort that I have lost my faith in people in general. I live alone now on the ranch. I have been making it just one day at a time. Doesn’t seem to have motivation to do anything new or different. Have given up my horses due to physical issues as well as financial. Seems like I just don’t have much faith in the future. I will be 73 next month and that scares me. My family is estrangedf from me so that keeps me torn up inside. Can’t fix one thing in that department. Estrangement is the new issue that I don’t know as support groups has gotten a group together on that subject.
All I do is stay home and take care of puppies all the time. They are the best thing for me as they love me anyway I am. Depression is a serious issue also. Seems like a bottomless pit to me. Just would love to have friends but my last significant other drove away all my friends. Well if anybody just wants to hang out to visit I do not refuse company. I always have come back to this group over the years.
I know how it feels . not a nice place to be sometimes. I love to talk to but nobody wants to listen.