Feel so lost my husband died of stage 4 lung cancer only 4 months ago the physical and mental pain is indescribable
I know how you feel in a way, my brother died 11 months ago. What has helped me is my faith. In addition, when grieving you want to allow yourself to go through the emotions/steps in your own way but also make sure that the depression is broken up with some kind of activity that brings you peace. Your husband would want you to be happy. With that being said its ok to grieve but not mandatory to continuously grieve to show you love him. What helped me is not having black and white days, meaning throw activities into the grey area which will help you see that time is not just sitting still. Hang in there, you miss him but he is always with you.
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