white flag waving
To whom are you surrendering? This can be a good thing, depending on the circumstances. I hope it is for you.
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I was considering drinking sleep medicine by the gallons. I was going to buy all the liquid and lights out. My workplace is very difficult and I don’t feel like I am making progress. There is nothing that I want to do further. I ran out of jobs. The hotel, ups, dollartree, family dollar, all banned me from returning. I really need to get high again. I will start on this week
Oh… sigh… How come all those places have banned you? From my (limited) viewpoint here it seems as though you have come a long way since we first crossed paths. As always, I wish you better times to come.
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I will write why when I begin to SH these upcoming day(s). I have to buy bandages, long sleeve shirts, to remain hidden. But the first one was UPS. On march 11, 2011 i was forced to resign by my manager AJ at Parsippany. He lied and stated that i told him that i threatened him and a friend of his supposedly which i did not. He gave me an option to leave without calling the police. I am not able to work there anymore. I remember that day like it was yesterday because I stopped trusting everyone. I went back home and i was visible not okay. I worked there for since August 2006. I am writing this because I am returning back to self harm this week. Expected
I urge you to look for another form of release. Has SH ever really helped you in the past?
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Yes, i just wish I had started when I was younger now. A doctor called all the kids that act wild mentally ill. But they were not really. I had hoped to make everyone like me. But then again 
not everyone would be able to be like me. There is no silver lining of good or bad, right or wrong, up or down. But i know that I am relaxed 
and not disturb inside and i can sleep. 
… but then there is a moment of how i have to return back and I can not change. 
Well, I guess you gotta do what you gotta do: if SH is the only thing that help you deal with life, so be it. Take care of yourself, and stay with us.
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Yeah, i was thinking about a cold shower. I ate all of the forbidden andes chocolates which was not supposed to be eaten. I am down and I want to just walk away 110 precent