6.02.2025
I have been going through it, and i find that because school is so busy right now (grade 12), I sometimes don’t realise that i’m not okay…until i do. I’m definitely at a much better place than I was last year, and I’m so grateful, but somedays I just get sad, like today. Sometimes i really wonder why God placed me on this earth, and sometimes I wish that I had never been born…, because why was I born? On days like today, i really feel like I would have preferred if I hadn’t been born. I mean, if the world will one day come to an end, i really don’t see the point of being in it. At least that’s how i feel today.
Sorry to hear you are feeling down today: we all have such days, and today will pass into history soon enough. I’ve never found asking: “why am I here?” to be very useful. I don’t believe there is any god-given answer to that question. Life is (IMHO) what we make of it. Try not to sweat it too much, and enjoy it as much as possible in a deep (not superficial) way. When you find your meaning it will probably not be much like my meaning, and that is as it should be.
See if you can notice the small things that happen today that raise your mood: someone holds a door open for you, the dog only eats one page of your homework, your lunch really tastes good, your friend smiles at you and asks how you’re doing … It’s often these little things that make day-to-day living worthwhile.
Best of luck.
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