My name is Chris. I have been hooked on prescription drugs since 2004. My life has become a mess. I owe people a lot of money. I am half *** doing my jobs. I come home to an empty house. I remember a time when I came home to kids laughing and a beautiful wife waiting to see me. I am sad. I am alone. I am hurting.
Today is day 2 for me without any pills. I feel like I am about to crawl out of my skin. I have stomach cramps. I can't stay off the toilet. I am irritable. I can't eat. I want my life back. I want to be normal again. I don't want to be this person anymore.
Hi Chris,
Welcome to support groups and thankyou for sharing your story it must not be easy.
The side effects are the worst part after such a long time of use. Hang in there though, ride it through and take every day as it comes. Remember baby steps towards your recovery.
Well done on making the decision to stop it is not easy.
Here for you if you ever need to talk. I watched my partner go through something similar and it was a huge challenge to help support him as much as I could without being too pushy.
All the best, stay strong
chris...this is saxondale.........are you still at witdrawl,or back on .....whatever...now to decide to end it...i can help you ,hopefully
take alot of baths, and drink tons of juices...to start
lemme know....my detox was biblical and deathlike....you dont want that !!!!!!
Hey Chris,
I know exactly how you feel. I was right where you are just 27 days ago, and by God's grace,I'm still sober. I know you're scared and absolutely miserable right now. I do hope you're not alone. Depending on what you are detoxing from (opiates for me), detox CAN BE life threatening if not medically supervised. Especially if you're coming off of ETOH or Benzo's. Not to mention the fact you can barely hold your head up right now, and completely unable to care for yourself, if you're detox is similar to mine that is. I just encourage you to NOT be alone right now, or anytime soon. Once you do somewhat overcome the "physical" detox, then the "emotional" detox begins. Many have either relapsed or harmed themselves when faced with the overwhelming rush of "numbed" emotions for which you were self medicating. Then there is the moment of reality when you realize that you've got to clean up the mess you've made. If you don't have someone to stay with you, or even if you do, I highly recommend "inpatient", just for detox at least. I did inpatient detox for 5 days, and had started detoxing at home the day before. They can give you medications (phenobarbitol and propranolol for me) to help with the detox. I'm a small framed person with no history of heart problems or high blood pressure, and during detox my bloodpressure was 220/110 and developed a heart arrythmia (resting heart rate was 200 bpm). I could have died without medical supervision. I'm still having to take the heart and blood pressure pill. Please, please, please, just be aware of potential problems, seek medical advice if needed, and DON'T DO IT ALONE!! I'm sure you're well aware, with addiction, we are our own worst enemy, and you don't ever want to be alone and vulnerable with your worst enemy. Lot's of love and prayers coming your way. You can do this, and most importantly, YOU'RE WORTH IT!!
HUGS,
SHONIE