I'm new here. To make a long story short, I am in my early 50s. I started drinking Christmas Eve 2002. Within 6 months it was so out of control, I'm talking morning, noon, and night. From 2002-2008 I do not remember birthday parties, holidays, vacations....nothing. Only what I have been told I did, and it wasn't pretty. I now go on binges about 2 times a month, but I need for it to stop. The weird thing is, I don't crave the liquor. To be blunt, I drink to get drunk. I just can't do it anymore, and I don't understand if I'm not craving it, why can't I stop it. Let me mention one other fact, I never drank prior to 2002. If this is happening to anyone else, and any ideas of why I can't control myself would be appreciated.
Did something traumatic happen in your life to trigger the start of your drinking spells?
Good question Poppy.
Jan would be wise to seek counseling if affordable to help guide you through this. If you hadnt been a drinker before then do you have the courage to take it day by day & not drink????? Or are you drowning something that would take the above mentioned alternative to figure it through? Look around this site for some other treatment options if & when you feel like, we're here to talk w/you.
Take care of you.
April
Yes my daughter never drank till her 40th birthday party then it was nonstop for 4.5 yrs. Today she's sober 5mo. but every day is a new conmitment to her self and God to stay sober one day at a time. By the way I have 8yrs clean and sober and I too must take it one day at a time and with the help of good friends and God I make it.
I too did not start drinking until my late 40's. When I did with a glass of wine in the eve. to relax - it soon turned into drinking wine all day and night. I then turned to Vodka. Alcoholism runs on my dads side of the family. I never had a clue that my drinking would take off the way that it did. Once I started, I could not stop. I have suffered many consequences due to my drinking. I am an upper middle class lady who drank at home. This disease does not discriminate by any means. My hope for you - is to seek treatment now and to not allow this to escalate any further than it has. You may say that "this or that" hasn't happened to you yet ( as far as consequences ) but there are many "yets" waiting out there for you as there are for all of us if we continue on this path of destruction. This disease does not only affect the millions who are addicted but also the millions who have never ever picked up a drink. My thoughts are with you.
I was just re-reading your post and i forgot to mention that I too, drank to get drunk. Also, you asked why? I can honestly tell you why - and that is because from what you said - you are an alcholic, no doubt. I have been in the rooms of AA and also many treatment centers for quite a while. It seems like you may be in some denial. The three best words of advice that I can give you are:
1. Go to meetings
2. get a sponsor
3. pray
I should probably mention that after a few years of drinking, I ended up on life support for a month with acute pancreatitis. It was a miracle that I survived. If you don't pray - you need to start. Just ask for the willingness to be willing.
Hi jansday, Welcome to SupportGroups.com . juliann made some great suggestions. When I wanted to do something about my drinking, I went to AA - http://www.aa.org/ for help. At AA, I found people who understood me and I understood them. I also found fellowship, love, encouragement, understanding and support. If you haven't gone to a meeting yet, then I suggest you try one. Make sure to listen for the likenesses not the differences. Take it one day at a time. Just for today - don't drink. Keep sharing and letting us know how you are doing. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))