hi there,im a newbie,my bestfriend wildflower told me what an awesome group this was with some wonderful people..so I decided to give it a chance:) I am bi polor,and have a bad anxiety disorder and have suffered depression since I was a young child.I grew up around abuse,verbal abuse and seeing violence..so that gave me PTSD.I dont like anything very loud to this day..quiet is calming.I lost 6 babies during pregnancy in a 5 year time frame..in my previous relationship.my oldest angel..Aimee would have been 10 yesterday..well that was her due date..so thats her bday anniv for me.even tho I suffer alot of mental probs..strangly thats not been my biggest problem lately.I woke up one day 8 weeks ago with bad pain on the top of my head.I thought it might be a caffeine headache cause I gave up soda( except caffeine free)so I waited like 8 days..then finally couldnt take the pain and went to the ER..had a catscan..it didnt show up anything.that was 7 weeks ago.ive been to the ER 4 times since then..2 diff hospitals.and I got no answers.the pain has increased since my first ER visit..my whole head hurts now..has for many weeks now..its so bad and ive got the pain 24-7..It never leaves..not even for a sec.I cant take a shower anymore..and if any water hits my head from the sprayer..its terrible pain.hurts to even shampoo my head..in the bath tub.but thats all I can handle at the moment.ive no quality of life anymore..its been very hard.im co raising my near 4 year old goddaughter and ive been havn trouble even taking care of her.my partner isnt sure how to handle it after 8 weeks..shes like not really there for me emotionally as shes dealing with her own stresses.and its hard cause I want to be able to help with the house finances,ect...but ive been to sick to do anything.my mom is taking me to yet another hosp tomorrow to get checked..and as its a big hosp hopefully they will do more tests on me.I need all the prayers and healing energy that anyone can send my way.thanks for listening. ((hugs)) fuchsiabutterfly
so sorry to hear about your illnesses I hope they find something for your awful headaches. I am praying for you tonight and I hope everything gets better for you. God be with you and may his healing hand touch your head tonight and make you well.
thank you elizabeth,im hoping too..8 weeks of extensive pain makes u go loopier then u started out..its been a very bad time!thank you for the prayers!!!
So glad you joined with me! :) Sending you lots of hugs and prayers that you get better soon...I have faith that you will! Love you bunches!
Thank you sweetie. Are you lonely and lost dear?