Life is hopeless . Doctors are useless , Pass you on and tell you what they want you to hear just to get rid of you, Asked for help but told to wait to see a specialist who only helps with his area of speciality nothing else . Got to think about suicide to get help.
I feel you friend, it does kind of feel hopeless at times. Remind me, did you already try acupuncture and Chinese Medicine? That has always helped me more than any doctor. Suicide is of course your choice, pain is not our friend, but I am here for you, hugs.