I lost most of my friend cause i had a baby, now all i ever do is sit in the house thinking and thinking about all the **** things i think about. which is what if i kill this person what if i kill this that and the OTHER thing. im losin it cause no i dont have a car, and no i dont have a job, and yes im stuck in the house alllllll day long with a baby im an extreamly social person... i need ppl in my life. my bf works all day. i think too much i need a shot of something but i dont drink cause i get more anxious about what if i act on my thoughts cause im impaired... imsooooooo sick of all of this. i need god. please help me find god. maybe he can help me i sit in a room with a stranger talking about my issues... i have ocd intrusive thoughts. and i just totally had a breakdown. well this kitten i got yesterday is not possessed with something trying to keep me awake at night even tho the cat is sleeping! i need to stop worrying so much about everything and anything i make every thing out to be worse then it is... and find things to think about that i dont want to think about such as oh a metal rod... i could think about hurting my daughter with this... then i think and picture it. i dont want to hurt anyone. im currupted by my own **** thoughts and feelings ever since i had a kid. im sorry im kind of pissed off and fed up! anyone have any idea how to calm myself down without meds!? or without treatment. has ANYTHING worked for someone they have done with ocd and anxiety please!!!!!!!! please reply
I am so sorry you are experiencing those things:( you might find useful reading the posts I have put on. They are connected to all the things you mentioned and you might find them relieving.
DO NOT GIVE UP
YOU ARE NOT ALONE:) THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE EXPERIENCING THE SAME THING AND NOT SAYING A THING. MY MOM HAS BEEN QUIET ABOUT IT ALL HER LIFE ( UNTIL A MONTH AGO BECAUSE I MADE HER ADMIT) AND SHE IS 55 NOW.
DO NOT GIVE UP!
I have the exact same fears...don't give up. I hurt for you. I feel it, I know it, and have had it many many times in the past. Talk to me when you need help...
I have the same thoughts as you do about my family members. I too don't have a car, job and i hardly have many friends and pretty much am stuck in the house all day which doesn't help my OCD.
I get thoughts like that too, but not as much anymore, I used to be afraid of knifes and stuff because I would get thoughts as you did about the metal rod, But they arnt as bad as they used to be, I take meds though. I take zoloft and fluvoximean but only have a zoloft now because it turned me into a zombie I also don't have a car and am like ahermit inside my
house all day and sleep alot but I am going to try and fix that hopefully one day
I'm right here with ya :) It's nice to have people who you can definitely both understand and relate to what you are going through. Ever need someone to talk to feel free to hit me up.
I am so sorry that you are going through this. Have you thought about joining some Stay at Home mom groups in your area. Maybe they are willing to car pool to get you out of the house. I was starting to feel low the other day. Like you I just had a baby 4 months ago but I realized that I no longer have friends. Someone that I can just get out of the house with. I didnt like this because before I was able to just live life freely with no worries. You can also go on Craigslist and look under the community section theres always people there looking for ppl to get together with. Also try and find a hiobby that can keep your mind busy. I am on yahoo during the day if you want to chat so you can at least have an adult conversation with someone. HUGS!
i have to admit im scared thats busy happening. But i am happy with my boyfriend at the same time. Now with my baby, i get alot of times where i just want to dress up, and go out and have fun with friends. I made friends with my boyfriends friends cause they are like every day there. But my friends arent like that. You know the guys...So they are not really my crowd but got to know them a bit more and they are ok. Just feel sometimes like the odd one out. proboply my own fault..
I'm so sorry, you can always make new friends, maybe you can volunteer for community service.