As I write this i'm really ready to give up, iv'e been on a road to feeling better for 18 months. Then on Saturday night I got drunk and made a fool of myself in the pub and almost got into a fight as a result and someone had to walk me home.
I woke up On Sunday in a major anixous state and hid in bed all day , had to take today off to see my doctor.
I'm wondering who might have a go at me in the street, what people are thinking when they see me, if the phone rings or a car door slams I want to hide.
I have depression which I know doesn't excuse my daft actions but one of the symptoms is feeling much worse about everything as though my life is over.
I have work on Thursday and I want to go in and face it but right now even getting through an hour is so hard.
Anyway sorry at my rant i just feel really scared and alone.
sorry to anyone who has realised that I posted in two forums about a similar issue, i'm feeling a bit calmer but not a lot.
That’s perfectly ok for you to seek help anywhere and everywhere. You obviously need and want help and advice from sober people.
Your choices from where I sit are…
I am in England I can help with the relevant phone numbers etc if you get in touch with me.
Also you can find out a lot of info from here
This IS the official AA site for the UK…You can also send me a private message too which I WILL reply to.
Call your local AA hotline…
Hate to say it but the ball’s in your court, but please do one or all of the above ASAP!
I wish you well in your quest for a new life in sobriety but you must take another step and contact a human with a voice not just in messages.
My best regards
Glen