BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! MY SISTER DID IT!
Did your life ever head in a direction in which you didn’t want it to and you try to figure out what went wrong or what changed?
I’m trying to figure out where my motivation went for seeing another day, going to the gym etc. Last year this time I had a part-time job. It wasn’t stable but after work I would go to the gym. I think my Mum used to keep my son at the time. But I had motivation to go to the gym after work & made good progress.
I gained about 10 – 15 lbs since then. I applied for unemployment and found another job 3 months later. But with my new job I wasn’t going to the gym & I had no passion for anything. I was becoming bored with my job. It wasn’t challenging enough among other things.
After 9 months, I was laid off of that job & since then, I can’t seem to get my life ‘in order’. I don’t know where to start. The only inspiration I get is when I think of the fact that my son only has one parent to care for him (ME). In addition, the obstacles my sister overcame inspires me not to give up on life, inspires me NOT to give up, inspires me NOT to throw in the towel.
I haven’t had a stable job in 7 years. Lord please let those 7 years be the END OF MY DROUGHT SEASON. I deserve greatness. “Okay” isn’t good enough for me. I am worthy of the good things in life.
My sister went through a series of trials YET she just landed her dream job after 6 years of hardship. My sister went through a cheating husband, an affair (on her part) because she felt neglected & unloved by her husband, and unfortunately she subsequently experienced temporary mental illness during this time. During her mental illness she was still able to land a job. But she left the job not too long after because she was still mentally unstable.
Fast forwarding 2 ½ years later, my sister got a job at a school. The employer was treating her unfairly by not paying staff on time and/or only paying them some of their salaries or sometimes they wouldn’t get anything. My sister always remained humble & professional despite how her employer was treating her. The employer was also not paying her staff’s work contributions. The staff was never given any bonuses or benefits. Regardless, my sister stayed humble & professional (the total opposite of me if put in such a situation). However , my sister was always searching for another job during the time she was working at this school. While still working at the school, my sister applied for a job elsewhere. She was fortunate enough to get an interview. She was so excited and so anxious about the interview because it was a job she really wanted. It was THEE job that she felt she could go into retirement in. It had great benefits and a handsome salary.
One day, to my surprise & to my family’s surprise, my sister came home & said she was fired. It was hard to fathom because my sister has such an admirable personality. The day before my sister was fired was a day she had an interview with another company. So here it was that my sister just got terminated & was uncertain if she would be a successful candidate at the new company for which she had applied.
After 3 weeks of being terminated, my sister called me to say she got the job! WOW!! My sister, for some reason, is always able to find another job in such a short period of time. I assume it’s because she’s been an HR manager for some years, so she would know what to say, what not to say, what to do & what not to do.
I was happy for her but when I think about it , it made me feel worthless because I never experienced half of what she went through & I’m still unemployed. I was laid off in May & haven’t found another job as yet. So, yes, I feel a bit embarrassed and feel like a let down to my family. I know I should never compare myself to others but I’m only human.
But my sister tries her best to encourage me by sending job vacancy ads to me and give me tips/advice and sends me daily affirmations so that I don’t quit. She said her some of her inspiration came from Joyce Meyers and T.D. Jakes.
I am learning to be humble. I am ready to let go the hand of fear and take the hand of courage.