Hello, I wanted to ask for some advice, lately I have been feeling somewhat frustrated, sad and somewhat nostalgic since well this comes from some family problems and at the same time from a family loss, which has affected me too much and even though it is already Almost 2 years ago it affects me as if it were yesterday, it has affected me personally since it has not made me want to do what I did before in addition to affecting me academically and emotionally, and every attempt I make to improve is more desperate than the previous one and with less desire, to the point of thinking that I have done wrong, and that part of thinking that I no longer have that person discourages me and although these episodes of how I felt only appeared if at all for a short time, it has lasted longer this time, and it has been less perhaps in a way that I almost don’t cry to get out of control like other times that it has affected the way I think or, well, my attitude, many people tell me that I have lost that hunger to be better or that spark that I always had it and I have noticed it too. I would like to be back at my best moment, I had a lot of discipline, mentality, being physically well and in shape and it was less difficult for me to do things, both those I liked and those I didn’t, but I don’t know I feel As if I had depression or something similar, it should be clarified that I am 18 years old and have lost a person as close as a mother at a young age, which was at 16, but suffer from seeing how that person fades away for 2 years It is very hard and even more so when it is a mother, the truth is I don’t know what to do, I don’t have confidence with my father and my other relatives I haven’t tried to fight this part alone without bothering anyone, and at first I could but after almost 2 years I begin to see the effects and doubt if I can do it alone and which has affected me mentally which has also affected me radically in my life.
The truth is that I want to recover that mentality that I had but I feel that I am mentally ill, I will barely turn 18 and I depend on my father but I do not feel confident to ask for a psychologist or even talk to him, it has also affected me in other things but of course me but I don’t know if it’s okay for me to talk about that, ahh it’s very frustrating