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A gun to my head , and they threatened to kill us both if we did not let them rape us. There were 10 of them there. they were jealous of our love. They raped us until we no longer wanted each other. We still do but it ruined our relationship. I need advice on how to deal with the pain. I need to be myself again so i can handle being with her. I love her unconditionally. I just blame myself for what they did.
I am so sorry for what you both have been through. It makes me cry for you. It was not your fault at all. I strongly suggest marital counseling. I am praying for you right now. I'm not married and only 19 but I was molested twice in my life. I want to be a support to you and your wife in whatever way I can.
Lauren
blue castle please dont blame yourself for what awful people do. it wasent your fault, i cant imagine having some one i love being hurt infont of me like that but i dont really have any one. dear you and your wife are still alive, and you still love one another and you have one another to depend on. there are still good things try and list them all write them down and put a picture of your wife with them . its just a thought but it might help.
its scary when that happens .... ive been through it aswell that where they threaten to kill you. no body should have to go through that. im sorry that you and your wife had to.
how is your wife doing?
blue castle you are strong to deal with all of that you have posted before on one of mine saying alittle about your life. i believe you can be yourself again but i dont think youve lost your old self , your old self is just hiding, its scared. and your wanting to help your old self become not scared and bring your old self back from its dark hole well blue castle you have the light its looking for believe in yourself and your old self and become you again.
ill be thinking about you. wishing you the best and giving you good thoughts even when your not reading what i say know that you are strong you are caring and you ARE going to make it
with lots of love and care
dahlia
p.s feel free to message me when ever youd like
ty hopeless girl. i means alot. we will get through this. thanks to your support. ty. so much for your advice.
ty Dahlia. Ty so much. i will use your advice. she is not well. but we are working on things together. ty again
im glad that yall have one another to make it through
I am so very sorry that this happened to both of you. I have been threatened that I would be killed if I told anyone what happened to me. He said my first warning would be to shoot all the windows out where I was living with friends. So, I didn't want them to get hurt because of me. It is pure evil to use someone's love against them. I just hope for the both of you that things will get better, even if it seems so slowly, as it seems with me.
Try thinking of it this way. They couldn't do what they did to you without using a gun. They also could have what you have so they wish to torture and destroy it. They want to crush your self esteem, hurt you, and attack you emotionally. So what does it make them? Weak pathetic jealous cowards! That is all they are and all they ever will be.
Despite how impossible it feels yes you can love each other again, talking to a counselor and getting your control back in your life are the best things to help you. My prayers I with you to overcome. Enabling your continued love for each other and suppirt each other is the best revenge against the evil doers.