Nor sure what to do

My boyriend and I have been together for a little over a year. I have a long history of Infidelity and swore to myslef it was behind me. Here within the last 3 months I have cheated on him 3 times with 3 different guys. It wasnt until 5 days ago did it start coming out. I love him very much and can't figure out how to A: stop cheating and B: fix my relationship. I know he's hurting and I just want to make it go away. He had me take a polygraph 3 days ago which i failed then later admited to the parts i failed on. now when he asked me if theres anything else he needs to know about, he doesnt believe when when I tell him no. Please help!!

i have been in that situation with my wife.there is no easier way to fix things, but you can do it.keep the communication open, don't give up on yourself.you will have to earn back his trust,and it won't be easy.try and get professinal help if you need to. you have peope here who understand. i wish you and your boyfriend the best of luck.

i think the problem is within yourself u dont seem to believe u deserve happiness that a faithful relationship has to offer, i agree keep the lines of communication open and seek help to sort out why u do these things.

u are amongst friends here so dont be afraid to explore/vent/moan about life to us

as always loving thoughts and positive vibes
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You must find strength within yourself to stop cheating. I know it is hard but in the long run you are going to do more damage to yourself than anyone else. I am on the outside looking in and after being cheated on by my husband I know how much it hurts, maybe you need something more from the relationship than you are getting but if you dont stop you are heading down a path that is going to ruin your life.

Every time I have cheated on him it has been after a night of drinking. I have told him I am no longer drinking. Also I have changed my number so no one from the past has it, the only people that knows my new number is him and family. I have offered to get help however I dont have insurance right oe and wont till after the firs of the year. I know he doesnt want to wait that long but theres no way I can afford to see anyone with out having insurance. Last night he asked me to find a way to help him last night and I couldnt think of anything. I told him this is somehing that cant be fixed over night and its going to take time. I'm not sure what kind of help he was wanting from me last night. I cant eat, cant sleep, Im physically sick, and my head is spinning. I have to fix this. All the other times I have cheated on someone I just walked away and I know I dont want to give up on this relationship.

hon

its hard to wait for help when u need it now so dont give up doing the little things like not drinking mayb u just need to talk to him to get things sorted in both of your minds.

but u need to begin to resume a normal life of eating and sleeping otherwise it will become worse and that is something u dont want to have to cope with

stay strong u havent walked so dont give up on yourself now, do things in bite size pieces so u can cope

as always loving thoughts and positive vibes
D :)