sexual abuse⚠️
I was just thinking about something that happened awhile ago when I was a teenager.
I was at a doctor (not the OB but a PCP) and they pulled down my underwear to near my ankles and they put their hand inside me all without warning. It made me feel violated and brought up previous trauma.
I just want to heal from EVERYTHING that I went through. Maybe someday I will get there. I keep trying my best to do whatever I can to help me to heal. I want to have a semi normal life.
My therapist says that I need to work on forgiving people for what happened. I can try but it won’t be easy. I can’t forget though. Hopefully I can work towards moving on from all the abuse.
Sometimes abuse still happens to me though (just verbal/emotional). I don’t know why I put up with it at all.
Also, I keep forgiving that person over and over because they apologize but I keep getting hurt.
