So the past few weeks I have been going to the park to feed the ducks. I stop by the grocery store and get really cheap loaves of bread, and then feed the ducks. There are all kinds of ducks, in the water, some of them hop up and swarm around me, they are SO excited to get a special treat. The park is beautiful, so relaxing and calming, and I just LOVE the ducks. I would go every day if I could. The quacking, honking, all the different kinds of ducks - little brown ducks, white ducks, geese, black swans. They are all happy, and it makes me happy.
This morning I felt like binging.... But I went to the park instead. It was almost like, by feeding the ducks, I was tossing all of the food I would have binged on in the past to creatures who really want it. I am throwing food into the water, but making many living things happy : )
I figure every time I feel like binging and purging, I just get a loaf of bread and feed the ducks. It is really worth the money and energy that way.
Ducks are saving my life at this point! Between my wonderful kitty (who is named Ducky <3) and the other beautiful wonders of nature, I feel like I will be able to make it.
Love you all
CC
awh, CC, that sounds amazing! so proud of you and what a great idea :-) the new duck mama!!
xxx
Thanks Maedi!
Quack Quack : )
quack quack quack 
wow. i am glad you found something that helps you. the story made me smile thinking how good it would be to feed the ducks or visit the zoo again.
Scarlette
CC!!! That's beautiful!!! :) Give Ducky a nice squeeze. :) Quack!!!
Love you,
Jen
Yeahhh!! Im SOOOO proud of you! I'm glad you found something that makes you feel so happy!! Stay strong girl!!
this is sooo beautifully written hon, i loved it! nature is gorgeous and soooo thanks for sharing! there is more to life than just body hatred--there is --so much more!
love
maureen
True, there is so much to love if you look around... and if you feel good about what you are doing, then I guess it is easier to feel good about yourself... at least that is what I hope!
Yes Ducky is getting a gooood hug!
Quack Quack : )
CC
CC, you know that from now on when i see your name i will always think 'quack quack'? and it'll put a big smile on my face :-)
xxx
CC...great tactic...and rewarding too! Thinking about you so much!! Jan ♥
CC,
be careful hugging ducky, some bite, i hear... :-P
sorry couldn't help it. every time i come on this post. there is something new someone said that makes me smile.
Scarlette
scarlet--- i love the quote at the end of your replies--'im not perfect. i dont claim to be. what i claim to be is me. it is all i can be. '
i sooo love that and am going to use that as one of my other mantras--thanks!!!!!!
love
maureen
maureen,
thank you. it helps me remember that i am not perfect. i have my **** i deal with. but that doesn't mean i can't try to support others as we all deal with the demon named ED
Scarlette
i'm totally with you on that, scarlette. i currently feel i'm getting nowhere with ED nor do i really have the will to, but i still want all of you to beat this **** ******* (sorry, but it's true!). and i wanna see/hear it when it happens :-)
xxx