There is something in my drawer that I want to grab, it's taking all my might not to grab it, but as the night goes on the weaker I get and the less stronger I am. I keep telling myself I am not going to grab it, but alls I hear is grab it. I keep telling I am strong, I am strong but tonight I think the urge might be stronger then me tonight. If you haven't guessed what I am talking about I am talking about self injury. I know I am strong but I feel so weak tonight I hope posting this will make me stronger.
Princess, I wish I knew what to say to you right now because the same feelings are going through my own mind. It feels like I have so much inside of me that needs to get out that I feel like I am going to explode. But, Princess try with me to not self injure and get through this moment. I'm sorry i can't be much help but wanted to let you know I understand.
Thank you for your post. I will try with you to not self injure. For me no mattter what the post says it helpe me lots, I just feel people really do care enough to post and that makes me feel goof.
i know this was last nights post, but honey YOU ARE STRONGER THAN THE URGE! i use to feel like that too and i had a slip up and it was like an outer body experience i didn't even know what i was doing. you need to know that it will not solve anything but cause more pain and that the addiction will only get stronger and stronger. be above the addiction. you got this girl. talk to me whenever
i know how u are feeling i am at that point right now for many reasons that i cant do anything about but i am trying my hardest to not cut or any other crazy thought that might go through my head right now cause i am really struggling
Sasha and Tiffer thank you so much for you post and support, it's helped, I am feeling better. I have said this before but it helps me to know that I am not the only one that feels that way. I know it doesn't solve anything and I know that it is a addiction. I am actually on the road of recover but it's going to be a long road, and also something my therapist told me which I think is very true is that she said recovery isn't clean, your still going to trip and fall on a rock on the road, and she also said concentrate on every minute I don't self injure, I have a tendacy to just think about the times I trip and fall. I didn't self injure. Thanks for being there and believing in me!
Princess, What your’e therapist sounds so true for me, I, up until recently, had not cut for over 7 years. Then all of a sudden old issues come up and I feel like I need to cut every night. Unfortunately, or maybe fortunately, I can’t. I have not figured out a way to hide it. My husband freaked out when he found out that I had cut again, and it’s a good thing he didn’t see it because, it was bad, but anyways I just wanted to say I understand what your therapist was saying. I am back on the road of trying not to, not sure how long I can hold on but I am trying.
I am glad things are feeling better.
Can I ask everyone a favor when you post on my post can you use the word self injure or you can you the word sock that's a code word that I use with my therapist cuz the actual word is kinda a trigger for me, whethe I am reading it, saying it or typing it sorry I didn't post that in the beginning that was my fault. So please no one feel bad you didn't know cuz I didn't tell you till now. No worries. I have learned coping skills when I do read it or hear someone say it but I still would like you to say sock or self injure. Thanks in advance, very much appreciated.