I feel the weight of the world bearing down on me. I had my fiance leave 4 mounths ago. I have a job that bearly pays the bills. I need therapy every week. I am now talking to my exfiance and i have to win her back after three and a half years. She is talking to other people and i find myself jealous. I feel like a failure. I dont know how much more of this i can take. I feel like it would be better if i jsut killed myself. I spent all of last night with a knife to my wrist. It was so easy to pull the knife to end it but i cant. But the want to die is still their. I need reasons to live.
I think that you need to tell your therapist how you’re feeling. Please do not harm yourself. I just lost my father (natural causes) and the pain is tremendous. Please don’t make your family and friends suffer from loosing you. One day at a time, things will get better.
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me too, i’m always trying to think of reasons to live, it all seems stupid and useless - but only if i think about it - if i just don’t think then it doesn’t bother me - i just keep on keep on
Realize that they don’t care.
Warhammer. There are always more rulesets to learn and minis to paint.
Seriously, though, I wish I could help you there. I have over 200K in debt and a job that pays 26K. I have literally no hope of ever escaping it, and I stare longingly into the abyss every night.