i look for and that is where it starteI need help, need to learn to accept this, male rape survivor.
los anges county jail, mens side,
I was sentenced for drug offenses,and was currently on probation.
I was put into a cell with 3 other inmates,
whom were very much into being in jail,
coming back from showers the first night, I was forced on my knees over a bunk, my face was smothered in a pillow, the male was in charge,J had the most power, asked me if I had ever been fucked in the ass, I could only shake my head NO. he said relax and dont fight it, he held my hips and fucked me in my ass, the pain was awful,i tried to sream,
when he was finished the next one, put vaseline between my cheeks, and he also fucked my ass, the third male, just kept watch.
when this was over, I tried to hide under a blanket, I was very sore, and could not stand up, I was told to shave my legs right now, or they would shave my legs , hold me down and shave my legs,
and they started to do this, until I said I would do this, as they were cutting me,
the womens side of the jail used the same laundry as the mens side, and that was where they got a womens jail dress and jail panties for me to wear, I had to wear panties and dress in the cell, or be yelled at, and maybe slapped,
they wanted me to look as female as much as i could.
I was held down and fucked in my ass many times, until, I felt blood, and was to sore,
then I was told to give blow jobs, either give a blow job or be fucked in the ass, giving blow jobs was my safety from being fucked in the ass l , I would have to go to each male in the cell, and unzip him, and give him blow job, every day, I choked and gagged and got sick a few times,
an older male would yell at me if I was not wearing a dress, and to stop this yelling i would put on the dress,I was told I was a woman now, I had to walk in front of men wearing a dress and panties, and be watched when I had to give a blow job, I could not fight them, and gave in to them,
I am a widow 2 years now