This week started off great. On Monday I met with an intake coordinator for an outpatient program. She was very helpful and gave me some names and numbers for therapists and nutritionists. Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I ate fairly well: I made myself have some breakfast, something for lunch, and dinner with no binges at all!!!! It felt amazing!! I felt so strong and healthy. Then Thursday came and I don't know what happened. I didn't eat anything for breakfast. Then I went to work where I didn't eat anything during my break either. Then I got home and I binged. Needless to say I felt disgusted with myself. Friday I just stayed in bed most of the day because I felt so low. And i binged again. I was going to purge but I rememeber what the nurse said during my meeting on Monday about how bad that is. Finally, I thought, "What happened? Why is today so different than Monday or Tuesday or Wednesday?" And I realized that on Thursday and Friday I had little support and I was alone most of the time. I haven't called any of the numbers I was given for therapists and I now know that I can't put it off anymore. If I want to get better then I need to help myself out to get the support I need.
Its a big step to realize why you binged and restricted. I would strongly suggest using the #s you were given; in the mean time continue to surround yourself with a good support system, which includes distraction.