****trigger warning**** I have been in a bad space mentally this past week. It feels as if I'm running in circles. I tried listening to a motivational speech but I can only listen for 5 minutes then I would change it to a audio book which I can only listen to for 5 minutes as well. I feel like I'm about to explode and then I start feeling hopeless. I can't think of anything that would make me happy. My eyes are always filled with water for the simplest thing. If someone says hi to me I just want to burst into tears. I feel overwhelmed with life. I have gained 15 pounds in less than a month, I'm getting darker because I have to be in the sun a lot. I disliked my last 2 hairstyles which was a waste of money. I have a new job coming up which includes a test & I can't focus long enough to study. I sit here & miss my ex husband but then I remind myself of why I divorced him & then I start disliking him & everything he put me through. I am so hard on myself about being a mother to my kids. My heart is heavy everyday knowing my mom has colon CA stage 4. I am in a terrible funk & I don't know how to get out of it. This causes me to have suicidal thoughts.
That's all really overwhelming. Do you have anywhere or anything that helps you clear your mind and calm down.
@Jordan5683 no not really.