Not sure how to write this but here it goes I am really struggling right now and I am afraid of talking to someone about it I don’t want to be a burden on anyone but I am currently stuck on what to dive been getting alot put on my shoulders helping someone else but when I need help I get ignored, turned away so I have learnt to keep it to myself I am highly suicidal right now but I have nobody to turn to
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You are not alone. Ive been there before, where I speant all my energy helping everyone else, but when it came to me. I found it hard to ask or that, all of a sudden, there waa no one willing to give back and just listen to me, the way i listened to them. Which, it hurt. It felt like the friends in my life where happy to talk,if it waa about them and what is going with them, but if i needed a lil time to talk, they werent there. And i know its not there responsibility or job or anything, but it hurt that the people i cared do deeply for, were not willing or possibly able to be there the way i was for them.
I had to learn to let that go. And find the balance between, when it comes to loved ones, being able to open up, and ket them know what was going, but then not completely throwing everything at them. Thats where a counselor, therapist, group setting, something like this came in.
I dont know if any of that made sense but, at the end of the day, we only have so much on our cup to give, we cannot drain our cups completely to help everyone else, we have to leave some for ourselves as well, or we end up completly drained, with nothing left to sustain ourselves, nothing left to help us keep going.
You are not alone. I dont know you, but i care and i understand. You are worth it and you are important. Dont ever forget that.
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Chey: sorry I missed your PM in early April - it was a chaotic month for me. I’m so sorry you aren’t getting the support you need. If there is something I can do to help let me know.
Your friend, BB.