Update: for those of you that don’t know i had my surgery a couple weeks ago and it went well. It just took me a little while to get back on track with everything in general after that.
Unrelated but my life is going to be changing again in 7th months. I’m going to be the only one in my household working (I live with my parents btw) and I just hope that they don’t argue more after they stop working. They have been doing that a lot and one day especially scared me: there was a threat of physical harm. Even though it didn’t directly involve me I was scared because I’ve been hit (physically abused) a lot in the past.
I have PTSD from ALL the abuse I suffered.
Change is scary in general though.
These are my “years of change”.
I just need to remember too that this change will help me with the next big change that needs to happen. I might even take smaller steps (have someone show me stuff I need to learn) to help me feel less overwhelmed with that next big change. I need to learn that stuff anyway so I will work on that first before I take the jump.