Hello, my sweet online freinds...this post is from a reply on Jens post--about Molly's question to what I picture ED to look like. And I thank Molly for giving me this question cause this is so helpful in fighting ED.
I picture ED as a woman who is dressed in Prada head to toe with matching shoes and handbag. She is wretchedly confident in her black silken dress and black stiletto heels and handbag. She has long shiny straight blonde hair, peircing blue eyes, full red lips and high cheekbones that are sunken in. Her face is model perfect.
But, as you look closer at her, she looks and smells of death. She is bone thin and urges you to be just like her. She convinces you she is better than you and hisses at you and hypnotizes you to be bony and cool like her (and like all of the Medai and TV/ movie personalities.)
I see her as a wretched fashionista --like a fashion designer who belittles me all day cause I look healthy and not skinny like them. She wants me to look unhealthy and rail thin like her and her cool friends. She oozes eveil and conceit. She is a she-devil.
I am not cool if I dont look like her--I am a worthless nobody and Ill never be happy or loved if I dont look like her.
She is the pinnacle of beauty( although a skeleton).
And I'm not good enough and fat.
She is one of those self centered ***es on TV/movies who claim you have to be super thin to be beautiful. And that I'm fat cause I'm not thin enough.
In fact I see the face of ED when i turn on the TV, movies, magazines--all telling me I'm nobody and that they are better than me. On magazines they keep insisting I loose weight or I'll be made fun of! And that I have to be like them or I'll be ugly.
Oddly, these rich superficial girls when you look past the perfect hair and clothes---look like skeletons.
They look like holocaust survivors.
They look like death.
So how can that be beautiful?
It is not --it is a look of disease and it aint pretty by a long shot. It is UGLY.
Looking like a walking corpse is DISGUISTING.
Health and life is beauty.
So may that ***** ED, that cool fashionista , drop dead and rot in the pit of hell. And stop brainwashing me to be someone else, and leave me to be who I am---the size that is right for me.
I want to be different, a healthy individual , not a sickly dying shallow fashionista whose only ability is to talk about her clothes.
May you sqirm in your own dirt ED , and may i not try to impress you or others who think that this "skinny" look is attractive.
Now that i know what you look like and who you are I can strangle your *** much more powerfully....
So watch out....ED.
Love
Maureen
I would like to thank Molly who inspired this that which was very helpful to me, and hopefully others...
THANKS friend!!!!!