Here I am, feeling all alone. I constantly get upset and cry constantly. My Fiance is deployed in Afghanistan and its killing me to be away from him. When I dont hear from him like I normally do, it scares me. I wish that he could just come home.
What do I need to do?
You need to occupy your mind with other things. Go visit people. Read a book. Clean, go for a walk. I have been married to a Marine for 25+ years and he was deployed numerous times before he retired. Now he travels more than he ever did in the military. Different circumstances entirely, but when he went to Iraq...I went through what you are experiencing.
I totally avoided watching the news...
Hang in there...
Thanks. I try hanging in there but there is those thoughts that hit my mind when Im lonely at home and stuff.
I feel for you. I was a mess when my boyfriend got deployed. It was his 4th but my 1st going thru it. My family was never part in the military, I knew nothing about what I was going to have to deal with. The thoughts that go thru your mind are normal, but I have to agree with the other post, keep yourself busy. Its much easier said then done, I know. My house was soooo clean while he was gone, lol, and I did a lot of reading/writting. Sometimes its nice to talk to a friend or family member, but if they have never been thru it, you might feel like they dont understand. At least thats how I felt. Keep your head up, stay strong, and try your hardest not to let him know how upset you are. Make sure he knows how much you love him and how much you missed him, but I would wait and have a cry fest after your done talking with him. It makes it harder on them to hear your tears. He will most likely blame himself for making you sad…not good for him to have guilt on his mind. It will get easier as time goes by, you will notice yourself sleeping better, and not crying as much. Before you know it, months have gone by and you think… “holy cow, I cant believe ive made it thru 3 months already”, and so on. If you feel yourself getting worked up, try and go into a different room, take a shower, or do something right that minute to get your attention on something different. Walk outside, or maybe bake some cookies. Controling the little moments will be a huge help. Hope it gets easier.
My heart goes out to you. Stay strong. 
I was in the exact same situation and I know its really hard. you need to be open and honest with him but know how needs you to be strong for him since your the only thing that matters to him out there. my best advise is be as social as possible with people you are close with but make sure they understand how upset you are so that can be sensitive to how you feel, also just stay as busy as possible with hobbies, and if you can exercise really does help especially when your really upset go run or box or do something to get out all that pent up emotion...... I hope this was a least a little helpful to you