When I had a drug test done it reminded me of my trauma somehow on top of me never doing that before and being anxious already. This truama may also be the reason I really hate the color mustard. I was wearing something that color when I was assaulted (sexually messed with)- whatever you want to call it.
I understand, you are sharing your thoughts of what you're experiencing and that's good because you are getting it out of your head. The best I can do is say those thoughts to myself I can't even share them here. Constantly having triggers about different kinds of trauma things like words, a certain look from someone, normal everyday actions, clothes I was wearing when things were going on, commercials, my own thoughts, nightmares.
I'm sorry you have to deal with trauma I know it's really a pain