Why fight

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I really don’t understand why we fight so hard. I look at all these different groups and it’s so disheartening. Everyone suffering. History repeating. I see Al the post of voices screaming to be heard. And for what. To be told to hold on one more day. Stay strong it gets better. But does it ever really? Or if it does often times it’s temporary. So why fight. Why bother. Why waste your breath. Does it matter who hears you if it’s all pointless anyways. I even tired of hearing myself. Pointless

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Today is a bad day for me. I feel anxious and I don’t have my best friend (alcohol) to help me out. In a way, it’s actually good because it makes depression worse, but I feel desperate, horribly anxious and hopeless. You say some truths. Does it get better because for me it’s been at least 10 years of it not getting better and 30 years of carrying on with depression.

Why fight? I don’t want to die and I don’t want my abuser to win.

I want to get better and I want to actually like myself and finally feel I’m worthy. I want to do right by ME for a change and I don’t know why I keep sabotaging myself.

I don’t think it’s pointless, but it’s not easy getting out of sabotaging habits.
It’s not pointless. I wanted to agree with you totally, but in a strange way, your msg made me think and helped me find a reason: I’m not going to let my abuser win.

I know my abuser is happy because I am down. I’m tired of it.

We fight hard because it is hard.
Not pointless, but damn hard.

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I love this answer Frederik. It is hard and getting better requires patience. It is not easy, but that makes the task meaningful.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with everyone.

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This morning, my anxiety shot up in an instant when a memory and the feelings associated with it flooded my thoughts. I started to think about ways to go out and buy alcohol. I really thought I couldn’t make it. Crazy enough, I thought about this post and what I said. I don’t want my abuser/NM to win. The more I thought about my plans to leave, my dreams of my future and how I should save my money for my freedom than for alcohol I started to calm down, breathe better and it got easier to think that I am worth it.

First time I listened to my own advice and now, several hours later, as much as I wish I had had that drink, I’m glad I didn’t give in. it’s a small victory, but a good one.

I made myself a good cup of coffee instead.
Thank you for your reply. You’re very right. Patience is important because it seems that recovery sometimes takes small steps and it’s incredibly easy to get impatient with the process.

One damn day at a time. Gotta be okay with that. Thank you both.

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I’m so happy to read this. Happy you can refer back to your own comments based on your learnings and act on that. Let’s continue taking this one day at a time!

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